The Fear

"I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
‘Cuz everyone knows that’s how you get famous
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner

Life’s about film stars and less about mothers
It’s all about fast cars and passing each other
But it doesn’t matter cause I’m packing plastic
and that’s what makes my life so fucking fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
and its not my fault it’s how I’m program to function
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner

Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I’m killing them all on my own little mission
Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner
Now everything is cool as long as I’m getting thinner

I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear
‘Cause I’m being taken over by the fear..."

~Lily Allen

Stupid Ego!

So, about the project that is scaring me out of my mind.........

I have to admit, that it's give my ego one good, big stroke. But then I heard that another customer may be doing a bigger upgrade later. Well WTF! I'm doing this amazing upgrade, who are these upstarts thinking that they're gonna try and upstage me??? So, I start thinking about upgrading my customer one more version, even though it's not necessarily recommended. Now THAT would be awesome, right?

So, my ego, much like the little devil on my shoulder, starts talking me into it. "I mean, c'mon....it can't be that hard sweets.......and you can't let these people upstage you like that! You're going first........damn, you'd be awesome! You're already doing this one baby. C'mon. Just one more honey. Let's do this!"

Well, when you put it that way.......

So, I talk to some release and server peeps. I think I never thought it'd be a go, truthfully. But, it turns out that the reasons we tell customers not to do this doesn't apply to my customer. And those people think that not only would it be doable - it's PREFERABLE.

Which just means more work for me and my team.

Argh! Stupid, stupid ego!!

Fashion Report

"Disco and kitch is out
Electro and glitch is in
Saving the planet is out
Being very rich is in again
Haute couture is out
Torture is very in
Glamour and Dior is out
Going to war is in again

Decadence is out
Ignorance is in
Self defense is out
Cause attack is back - its in again
Revolution is out
Air pollition is in
Evolution is out
And prostitution is in again

Passion is very out
Anti-fashion is in
Compassion is totally out
Cash is in, it's king again
The loving God is out
Jihad is very very in
Just to live and then die is out
To commit suicide is in again

Fashion report - Ahaaa
To know fashion is a sport you gotta be smart
Fashion report - Ahaaa
To know fashion is an important art"
~PAY TV