Be Mine

"It's a good thing tears never show in the pouring rain
As if a good thing ever could make up for all the pain
There'll be no last chance to promise to never mess it up again
Just the sweet pain of watching your back as you walk
As I'm watching you walk away
And now you're gone, there's like an echo in my head
And I remember every word you said
It's a cruel thing you'll never know all the ways I tried
It's a hard thing, faking a smile when I feel like I'm falling apart inside
There's a moment to seize everytime that we meet
But you always keep passing me by
But you never were, and you never will be mine
No, you never were, and you never will be mine."
~Robyn

Didn't make it to dress shopping last weekend.....

Because my tonsils are trying to kill me.
Seriously.
I went out with some work people Friday night, and was fine, and got bed around midnight or so, so that I'd be rested for dress shopping on Saturday. But when I woke up at 9am, my head was all congested and my tonsils were swollen to what felt like 3 times their size.
I was a slug all weekend, laid around and napped and ate lots of soup and popsicles, and I *still* feel like crap. Ugh.

Gr.

That is all.

Rephrase

Ok, let me clarify what I meant in my previous post about wedding dress shopping – I was not miserable, I was TERRIFIED. I felt like I was in way over my head. There was lots of activity. Lots of floofy white dresses that made me look utterly horrible.
Keep in mind that I never thought I’d be having a wedding as big as the one I’m having, which I know, is not big by anyone’s standards but mine. I’m not used to all this girly dress stuff – I’m a tomboy and I am comfortable in jeans and a t-shirt, NOT in a tight white fancy dress.
Plus it seemed like all the dresses that were picked out were not what I had in mind, but I don’t KNOW what I have in mind, so what can I say?
I was just very confused and flustered and completely out of my element. But I’m hoping it gets easier the more I do it.

The Sound of Goodbye

"Every face I see is cold as ice
Everything I touch is pale
Ever since I lost imagination...
Like a stream that flows into the sea
I am lost for all eternity
Ever since you took your love away from me
Sometimes the sound of goodbye
Is louder than any drumbeat
Sometimes
The sound of goodbye......"
~Perpetuous Dreamer

"Girl's" poker night

So, I needed some relief from the hecticness all lately, and a night free of testosterone seemed like just the ticket, so I got the girls together for a girl's name night last Friday.
We played poker, drank beer, ate pizza and wings, and played a drinking game called "What the F*ck", which is COMPLETELY guy-centric.
So much for the girl's night. But it was tons of fun :)

Then on Saturday morning we went bridal gown shopping.
UGH!
I really thought that it would not be that terrible of a process, and I was so wrong. I didn't like any of the gowns or bridemaids dresses enough to really consider any of them. Towards the end of 2 hours in that place and I wanted to buy something just so I wouldn't have to go through that again.
Think about it - first, I'm ridiculously nervous because I'm way out of my depth and there were so many people there! Then you get to wear disgustingly tight "undergarments" (really, I think they're that tight so that when you can't breath you get lightheaded and agree to a dress just so you can get out of them) and need at least one other person in the dressing room with you to help you put on silly, fancy-pants, floofy dresses that weigh 100 pounds and don't flatter ANYONE'S figure. Then you get to prance around on a pedistal in front of everyone and about 3 million mirrors, and of course the one dress that I like is floaty and plain and the ones that everyone else likes is tight and fancy.
We had a late lunch after that, and I promptly went home and burst out crying to my poor, confused fiancé, who only wanted to whisk me away for a romantic night for my birthday.
And I get to do it next weekend too.
*sigh*

The couple that does kegstands together, stays together

That's how the old saying goes, right?

Disco Friends

"She's got a whole lot of disco friends
Disco ladies and gentlemen
Eating their faces from the inside out
Freaky dancing till the late AM
Music slipping down the walls of sweat
She's catching fishies in a disco net
Throwing kisses in the powder room
Slowly sucking on a cigarette
She knows an awful lot of disco kids
Novelty sunglasses and mullet wigs
She says she wants to be a stylist
Or maybe something in the music biz
Daddy's rich, Mommy's beautiful
They always said she'd be a top model
But now she's hiding out in disco land
A happy clappy trust experience
Disco friends..."
~Just Jack

Quote

There is a quote that I keep taped to my computer monitor to help me keep a sense of humor and my sanity on stressful days. Today it seems especially appropriate.

"I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days attack me at once."
~Jennifer Unlimited (writer)

Work

I have been up almost all night for work because one of my customers did something bad to the system yesterday afternoon and I've been helping them clean it up. And we're not done yet.
Tired kitty is sleepy :(

It's a New Year

We rang in 2008 by partying at Wintergypsy's house until 4am - good times. And I was ok to drive home, which was pretty freaking cool - no drunken escapades for me, and I'm suprisingly ok with it. I met some really fun people and had a great time doing some new things (walnut wish boats, anyone?).
I was too busy having fun to take pictures, so here are a few highlights from Loud.

How our night started out:

Casting our wishes on unstable, flaming nut boats:

The artistic photograph:

No party is complete without J-E-L-L-O:

The completely un-boobalicious club:

The fiancé appreciated that picture:

C'mon people - it's the Veuve:

Towards the end of the night:

I love the holidays :)