Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Whee!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Scenes from painting, part 1
Sunday, July 19, 2009
I heart ironman training
Friday, July 17, 2009
Revelation
"Half inch fuse, ready to bite
Never said you’re sorry cause you’ve always been right
Tell me I’m lame every Saturday night
Cause you drank too many and you want to fight
All my life, hold my breath
Wonder what trouble is coming next
Hold on tight through this mess
Sing that song 'cause you sing it best
La la la la
Hey, I love it when you’re spitting in my face
The way you scream when you’re breaking all my things
I love the way you put me in my place
Don’t ever leave me alone..."
~Smile Empty Soul
I must admit, I'm sometimes that girl. I have a shitty week, or my beautiful goldie, my only friend for a while, dies (he moved with me from RI to Madison 6 years ago in a small tupperware container situated in the center console of my car when my "loving" boyfriend wouldn't, and he died last Thursday - we buried him and I couldn't go to work on Friday), or whatever. And I get busy drowning my sorrows, and then get belligerent and annoying. And I always apologize after, because I realize what a world-class asshole I've been.
These kind of angst-ridden, guilt-and-anger, love-and-hate volatile relationships seem sexy, dangerous, and what "real love" must feel like when you're 18.
But I'm 28 now, and if those 10 years have done anything besides make me fatter, it's made me realize this:
FUCK THAT.
I love my husband, a ton. It's an absolute miracle (and I don't believe in god) that we found each other the way we did (living across the country, taking the same job at the same time even when he graduated a year earlier, etc) and I can't imagine living without him.
So, I've decided to grow up. He's worth the "imperfections" that are mostly a product of my own insecurities anyways. I love him and I don't want to drive him away.
And the same goes with my friends. I will reach out more. I love you guys too, and I'm sorry I've been a shitty friend - but hopefully, we can can move past it.
What do you think?
http://failblog.org/2009/07/16/intelligence-fail-2/
Thursday, July 9, 2009
R.I.P. Dave :(
Monday, July 6, 2009
Super productive Saturday!
Seriously, it was a lot of food for only twelve bucks - coffee, eggs, toast, bacon, pancakes and an bagel w/cream cheese.
So, then we went to Kohl's as planned so I could pick up some swim suits (I got two) and I also shopped around for some cute dresses for all the weddings this year - again I got two. I also picked up some shirts, shoes, and jewelery. D also picked up some shirts and shorts. I think we spent 3 hours shopping, so I'm all shopped out for the next year :P
Then we went to look at cars so D could peruse the used BMWs, and he found one that he liked, thank god. We then did some shopping for the house and for dinner. After dinner, we went to Menards to get painting supplies! We had some samples from Sherwin Williams that I liked, and so we got busy painting on Saturday night. We painted some walls in my room, and finished that up Sunday. We also painted one coat of paint in the guest bedroom, so we have one coat to go.
Pictures to come of that!